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Lori Carroll's avatar

At a month shy of 52,

My definition of love has changed.

No longer the reckless, overflowing, all-consuming

Fire of my younger days

An intense conflagration

Threatening to burn us both

Now, it's the feeling of wanting to pull my chest apart

Left from right

And let it pour forth from the depth of who I am

Like sunshine touching everything in its path

Steady and warm

Fiercely bright

It's deeper than it once was

Given more freely

Without the need for a reflection

Shining through all the cracks of past hurt

Heedless of lessons I never seem to learn

But worth the risk

Fearless and blazing

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Alanna Rose's avatar

At 5 love was doing things I didn’t want to for people that didn’t know how to love me without putting me in a cage and only giving me access to themselves.

At 10 it was forgetting myself for the grief of others

At 15 love was being willing to destroy myself for someone else

At 20 love was unconditional acceptance of another’s behavior, and giving the benefit of every good reason to doubt

At 25 love is what is emotionally safe for my family, which is what is emotionally safe for myself.

Today love is in the listening of those outside me that support my health and well being. It is listening when I’ve caused hurt, and receiving true love when it arrives. Today, love is going to therapy, endless I forgive yous, and hope and faith that we can be better people.

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